My son will perform for the United Nation event with a group of children on the stage, a dance interpretation of the song “We are the world”, at our church. Today, I watched them as they rehearsed. My son was the only one wobbly, and moves a lot. The teachers will give me confidence that they can manage my son, and as an assistant teacher, I was asked to focus with the other children instead. I see my son, going around circles, bumping onto other children, dance interpreting only the part he wants, and playful to other parts of the song. They will be holding a flag as an accessory for the performance. My son will be switching flags, and I will often hear other children complaining, “hey, don’t touch my flag”, “return my flag”, and so forth. My spirit will be disturbed and my flesh would pull me close to him to discipline, but I am restricted by the trust and confidence by the Head teacher. It is so disturbing to see your child who was given a diagnose of ASD/ADHD.
But I remembered a verse in the bible regarding Living Sacrifices to God.
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God. (Romans 12: 2)
More than I am challenged by the will of God to situations I cannot control. I am also learning and discovering around me the people whose heart truly belongs to God. Why I call my son my angel, because he reveals to me the soul of the people that we encounter, above the challenges and battles within us, that are up front, testing our faith and trust to God. Everyday, learning release of unnecessary thoughts through prayers.
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; 7 and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6)
Think on These Things, Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think on these things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me, put into practice. And the God of peace will be with you. (Philippians 4:8)