Jesus Wept

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John 11:35, the shortest verse in the bible, Jesus wept. This happens in the story of Lazarus. How? if Jesus wept, How can we not. In Lamentations 3:33  “For he does not afflict from his heart or grieve the children of men.” When the most painful we could ever experience in this world is death. Jesus didn’t wept for the dead Lazarus. Jesus knows that he will have to face death for the redemption of man.

Why is weeping necessary? I thought of this verse after I wept today. May I share with you my story. I was serving in the Kids church when my hyper active son started to be dancing, moving a lot, with his hands all over the place, pushing hitting the children around him as he do the moves for the dance. Intentionally or unintentionally, I didn’t find pleasing, so my motherly instinct stepped in. I had to pull him away to speak to him to make him calm. In therapies, I see that if children starts to act inappropriately, they were told at the instant so to stop the behavior, not let it turn into a habit. But he was giggling move and wouldn’t bother even if it affects what’s around him. He did not let me stop him. Besides, he started kicking and punching me, so I had to stop him with force. It looks very ugly.

The head teacher got in the middle where he started to calm down, then she gave him a hug. I had to prompt that he ask to say sorry. And he did. Later on, the teacher spoke to me that it is better that I leave him there. That he is better there before I joined in. As I was favored with the effort that they are giving my child, I gladly acknowledged what was said. But yet, on the way home, my spirit cried, then I fell tears in my eyes.

Why am I sadden for? I am sadden because more than serving to be the vessel to giving birth and life, I have given my commitment to him and took gladly the responsibility of motherhood. I quit my work. And then, after knowing his condition, I pushed more to do all that I could to pursue  the right upbringing. I look at the church as my shoulders.

I cannot do it alone. According to (Acts 2:42) They were continually devoting themselves to the apostles’ teaching and to fellowship, to the breaking of bread and to prayer. All I know to do and act for is to surround myself with godly people. To parent a child with special needs is not easy, there will always be the downing spirit. For this particular situation. I wept not for the rejection. But for the commitment I have put on this, that I wished people around me could see how much I am trying and living it positively faithful. That the strength I am praying for be made available around me through Jesus Christ and his followers. I can only pray that in everyday, may it continue to cleanse me and bar my head with sorrow and grief for those who limits their belief to what they only know and see my hearts desire and be on my guiding side. Please give your comment. Thank you.

4 comments

  1. It is heartwarming that you love your son so much and do your best to care for him. it must be tough to raise someone with special needs and I hope he can give the strength to continue to love your son in spite of obstacles; I can sense from reading this that you have a big heart. May God bless and your family.

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